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♥ Friday, June 29, 2007♥

i just only reached home fr. shopping to dinner.
now i'm rather fatigue & sleepy.
all i need is to slam myself on the bed.

btw, yesterday i strolled around tampines mall with sis nana, mommy & the 3 kids.
we accompanied sis nana shopping for her office wear.

guys, i happened to bump into this americaya heels esp the gold & camel brown.
the price? $60 ok! not cheap though.
and...
i still cldn't find my brand new charles & keith brown heels! *argh*

we then made our way to century sq.
guess what we're up to?!
it's METRO last closing sale!
only meant for members, lucky my sis is one of them.
my sis shopped till she dropped!
slashing @ 20-50% DISCOUNT.

however, i'm not a metro freak.
i just cldn't find anything bizarre except make-up.
well, it does work for my sis, mom & kids (toys).

a two-way foundation
2 loreal superliners
1 bourjois sparkling eyeliner
1 maybelline volume express mascara
all worth of $64.08 after 20% discount.
GREAT!
@ least i saved some!

loreal is my type but this time....
i wld lk to try out maybelline mascara & bourjois sparkling eyeliner.
i wonder if it's good.
well, no harm trying right?

we're maximumly full after dinner @ McD's.
then head down to meet the rest for another dinner!
it's my sis ezra's treat.
sadly, it's such a waste i only drank lychee & no food *:P*
like i said that i'm too-too-full!

ok, good nite ppl!


Love...


♥ Thursday, June 28, 2007♥

in a state of dilemma?
yes I AM!
i'm in doubt!
is it a necessity to buy a brand new hp or do hair make-over?!

m1 is having roadshow @ my co. comes July 6th.
obviously, i need to subscribe a line to get the phone!
no such thing like buying hp per se.

i confessed i hate line!
bound to pay bill monthly for 2 id*ot years.
actually not that bad.
since it wld be corporate plan, it means low subscription fee.
what's more?
sim card & registration fee worth $40 is waived!!

you see, how can i not resist this offer? *fed up man*

at times, i find buying high end hp is so not practical.
in a way, i cld use the money for other purpose.
for example, i got a colleague who ever spent $1.2K+ for 25-30 pieces of outfits.
after discount, she emphasized she ONLY paid $700+ *wth*
her hp is the nokia-no-colour-screen-hp.
she told me that as long can call & sms ppl, shld be ok!

hair.
i don't know if i need to textured perm it.
or i can just forget abt it?!

bottom line,
i'm in doubt!


Love...


♥ Wednesday, June 27, 2007♥

i L.O.V.E. her to bits
i bet she's a millionaire, & yet she's humble.
from her powerful voice, her beautiful make-up to her never-ending fashionable outfits.
what a wholesome DIVA!

seriously, of course she made me ponder abt her marriage.
datuk K. *omg*
not to worry! i'm not against her marriage ok.
i pray she has a blissful marriage. *amin*

don't puke or die on me ppl!
i adore taufik batisah since singapore idol.
his voice & dressing sense are just so...AWW!

i find him very cool in a way that cld make me melt.
reluctantly, i saw him once @ esplanade.
i wanted to snap a picture with him.
looking @ the harassment, it's ok.
forget it!

it's clearly in my mind...
he quoted that his popularity is 'louder' than the hardwork he put in.
personally, i find hardwork will pay off somehow. *insyallah

to be honest, i'm not his big fan.
i wld say his songs are audible to my sense of hearing!
so far, i only know his 2 hit songs.
& he's not bad looking either...

oh ya, thx to fadzir for blogging abt this song.
seribu tahun or 1K years
or i shld thx the person who recommended this song?! *:p*



Love...


♥ Monday, June 25, 2007♥

reading seems tedious for me.
amazingly, i only read tiny-weeny words in mags, lecture notes, straits times & newpaper.

eversince i was strucked with boredom the other day...
i borrowed this book fr. wendy.
amazingly, i left with 3-4 out of 13 chapters away.
WOW!
i'm extremely surprised.

this book is well-known to most bookworms.
the was once i firmly held the book, a passer-by commented to finish it up!
so to speak, it's recommended.

well, it teaches alot abt life & death.
everytime i read this, it kind of touches my heart.
morrie, a professor to mitch, is contracted with terminal disease, ALS.
he's a great professor with alot to offer.

Amyotrophic lateral sclerosis
lou gehrig's or motor neurone disease, is a progressive, fatal neurodegenerative disease caused by the degeneration of motor neurons.
ALS is a disease marked by gradual degeneration of the nerve cells in the central nervous system that control voluntary muscle movement.

oh NO!
isn't it chim?
sounds lk human anatomy & physiology module i took during tertiary. *haha*

so his days are numbered.
however, he perceived death on a bright note.
he well-spent the days with ppl who matters included friends, colleagues, ex-students etc.
he even did gatherings for these ppl to 'celebrate' his death.

actually quite true.
why ppl mourn only when a person dies & not cherish the moments left to breathe?!

mitch, unemployed - once a reporter in a prestige firm, sacrificed most of his time with morrie every tuesdays.
also, this is to replace the time lost when he's hooked up with careers.
chasing money & fame, big house, posh cars etc.

during his visits, he brought a recorder to reflect on morrie's pieces of advice.
abt anything...life, family & all.
with each visit, he wld see morrie developed progressively with the disease.
overtime, he became immobiled.
breathing was such a hassle & had to depend on oxygen tank.
coughing was like choking on fish bone.

personally, @ this last phase, i wld only spend my last moments with family.
however, morrie enjoyed mitch's presence.
i really admire his courage & i don't know how he cld go through this steadily.

the OUTCOME, i've to finish it by today or tomorrow.
YEAH!
so excited!

oh btw, i didn't managed to finish the book i borrowed fr. fadzir.
i read halfway.

for guys who want to get this book, drop by kinokuniya.
selling @ $15+.

guys...happy monday ok!


Love...


♥ Sunday, June 24, 2007♥


while i was comfortably snoozing on saturday afternoon, eesya, irfan & indra shouted:
'BIBIK...IMAN & DANIA ADE KAT SINI!'
next moment, i took my cuddly pillow & covered my head! *oppsie*
don't be mistaken, i was really in the deep ocean of my lalaland!
i cldn't afford to get off my bed!

i panicked & opened my eyes.
WHAT! it's almost 1030pm.
more than 3/4 of the day bypassed! *shoot*
i didn't really feel my day wasted.
@ least, i get to rest right?

after my cold shower, i heard somebody playing the X-box GP.
they're home!
so ecstatic to see the kids esp iman & dania.
it's been quite a while i didn't hear their voice.

i was told they makan-makan @ esplanade.
had satay & all w/o me. *ishk...rabak betol*
guess who they saw there?
TAUFIK BATISAH.
the kids esp. eesya called his name. *so mentel right?*
they got the chance to snap pics.
seriously, i like him better than hady mirza. *oppZ*

after they showered while i was getting ready, iman asked me:
BIBIK, HOW TO SWITCH ON THE COMPUTER?
GEE
when i was pri. 3, switching on the pc was easy.
to navigate after that was such a HOO-HAA!
kids nowadays are so smart & well-versed in anything that you cldn't imagine.
so the boys meddled the x-box.
the girlies surfing the internet.
barbie, spongebob sq. pants. high school musical, kids central.
in short, just name it guys!

at this hour, the kids are pinning themselves on my bed.

i love all of them to bits even how irritating they are!
muacks.

i super-dooper miss these 2 kids.
they occasionally come here since sis is busy.
most of the time, the maid gets to see them.

COME HERE KIDS!
bibik want to kiss-kiss & hug-hug you ppl!

BTW, this is SHOCKING!
this is the 2nd time i saw someone trying to breakopen cars.
ridiculously, only cars not bike.
so i sms-ed my friend to remind him.
well, the carpark facing my kitchen is freaking pretty unsafe.
i mean i saw a middle aged man walked straight.
then when i switched off the lights, he u-turned to find a 'spot'.
after few minutes, he torched the car window.
ok...it seems like a hassle to look at his suspicious acts.
i wld rather switch on the pc man... *haha*

to my neighbourhood friends���don���t park your vehicles @ dark secluded areas.



Love...


♥ Saturday, June 23, 2007♥


N.A.U.G.H.T.Y.L.O.V.E.

june holiday
for the kids is like a playground & buffet treat here.
tired is never in their dictionary.
HAVING FUN + PLAYING are always in their mind.
a must breakfast is curry puffs.
every morning they wld ask me,
'bibik, $2!'
ok...$2 gone! *haha*


i always consume their killing-me-softly-noisy-voice everytime they play along the corridor!
obviously, i've to tolerate these kids.

previously, there were couple of times i had to baby-sit 5 kids @ one go.
OMG!

no words cld describe the anger-yet-delighted feelings.
seriously, it's like a beneficial intense training too.

i learned how to manage the kids well.
i mean like showering & feeding them etc.
isn't it good for my future?! *ya, like real eh!

to gLaM_RoCkStAr! thx for being an ultimate fan of my humble blog! *wahliao..bo tahan lei!*



Love...


♥ Friday, June 22, 2007♥

have you ever felt freaking sick of sitting ?
personally, i'm fed up of resting my butt on the chair.
for long hella hours.
even typing this entry, i need to sit! *aiyah*
well, not really fed-up-fed-up-kind, but just feeling i'm not moving alot.
this irritates me sometimes.
recently i felt pricks on my back!
oh pls, i want to age well ok!! *haha*

this pic i took during hari raya 2006 @ home after house-visiting.
the tiredness felt then was peanut.
now it's like i wish i cld sleep all day long.
for goodness sake, i even drag my feet to the bathroom. *sigh*
so try to imagine that!!


Love...


♥ Thursday, June 21, 2007♥


is it wrong to listen or to know something?
obviously, to know something is to ask.
i'm wondering.

i guess i hv to keep on reminding myself again & again & again.
i need to emphasize my mind by telling...
DON'T ASK WHY, WHAT HAPPENED, HOW COME!
only LISTEN when bump into topics!

humans are gifted with 1 mouth, 2 ears & 2 eyes.
yet, humans have misused it.

bottom line, no one is perfect...
i'm not refering to anyone out there. it's only meant for me...


Love...


♥ Wednesday, June 20, 2007♥

i hate the fact that i'm feeling
unwell
...
mentally
&
physically!

btw, i've edited my friendster skin.
from an angel to something bright & colourful.
i adore!

to be honest, i sms-ed my friends that i wld like to cancel the gathering held in July.
i don't have a solid reason.
it's just that i don't want to be like real & someone extra in the circle.
i don't want to invite unwanted comments fr. ppl.
pretty unpredictable but it cld be a tight smack on your face.
not now, probably one day.

i do cherish the moments, ups or downs, i had with my guy-friends during school days till my last breath.
i still remembered...
we studied & revised for the O-level religiously @ study corner.
we stayed out till late nights.
we chilled @ the void deck.
we argued.
we had fun & enjoyed each others' company.

barriers happen for reasons.
let's grow & think wisely.

my endless friendship love to you all!
you know who you are...


Love...


♥ Sunday, June 17, 2007♥


i had egg & plain prata this morning...
& i'm still hungry...
i don't know what wld become of me!
i don't mind gaining weight but i don't like to be hungry!

probably i hvn't eat rice?
well, i'm a very carbohydrate person...
i can miss anything but not rice or bread!
noodles are a NO-NO list for me...
i can nvr feel satiate with noodles...

ok guys. i'm quite tired now.
i wanna have warm shower & sleep!

IT'S SUNDAY MORNING!!!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO DAD & ALL!


Love...


♥ Thursday, June 14, 2007♥

i've been thinking if i shld do a hair make-over.
fadz, wendy + ari were like psycho-ing me to do textured perm.
thanks eh guys...until now i'm still thinking & thinking. *haha*

it's been way back that i wanted to rebond.
BUT i don't want to lose my natural curls.
worse still, the grown hair will be stiff & look as good as a wig hair.
GOSH. i can't imagine how i 'll look like by then. *eyes close*
it's ok to be messy but NOT disasterous!
so forget abt it!

now, what's up with textured perm?
honestly, i don't even know what's this until the guys told me! *paiseh sar*
a better alternative compared to rebond.
if i were to do this, it'll enhance the appearance of my curls.
more curls means more hair volume...i'm loving it!

see how beautiful kelly's hair!
eversince i saw her never again vid. clip, i'm so into her haircolour.
i don't even know how to describe it.
slightly dark brown-tinge of golden brown @ an angle...
and ok...i'm bad at describing.
i really hope i cld get the same haircolour.

i still remembered i actively coloured my hair during sec. sch.
i then stopped when i got myself into tertiary.
trying to be good girl! *oh, shut up!*
i started to dye my hair only late last year - jet black.
not being proud, actually, i adore the idea that i have long curly jet black hair until now.

when i held my motorola hp yesterday, rosemary pointed out...
'fizah, now you're earning money already! go & get new hp.'
i was like, 'alah, wait ar. i'm still thinking if i need it.'
many have asked me to change. so i guess my hp is freaking old school for all to notice.
before this i even thought if i shld get either samsung [F300] or sony ericsson [W880i] by next month or even before the gst hike.
the thing is i don't know if i shld have a new hp or not! *sigh*

GUYS.
let me consider & have deep thoughts on textured perm, hair dye & a brand new hp.
i mean things that you want might not be the things you need most.

signing off



Love...


♥ Wednesday, June 13, 2007♥

just want to SHOUT:

WHATEVER
&
THANKS EH!


Love...


♥ Monday, June 11, 2007♥

seriously i miss blogging! how shld i go abt?
i've been busy with working, sleeping & planning outings.
this week is idiotically tiring week for me.
ok! enough lamenting abt life! *evilly smiling*

here's a recap what i've done for the week...

saturday, 9th june 2007

i told u guys before that i cld slp lk a pig right?
& i did it again! guess the time i dragged myself off the bed?
it's freaking 830pm. *WHAT? DIE!*
don't question yourself because it's very much true.
usually i'm already somewhere else, but this time, i was still locking my soft bolster in between my legs! *shiok lei*
movie @ 1030pm & i've to force myself out of the bed!
i've to be on time meeting pek + linda, yazid + linda & lan.
i quickly changed & arrived the cineplex @ 1015 *lucky me*

well, he told me yazid did advance booking on friday.
OCEAN'S THIRTEEN is the 1st movie in the month of June.
honestly, i was even thinking to give a skip on this movie.
i didn't even get the chance to catch ocean's eleven & twelve.
on the other hand, how can i not miss brad pitt?!
he acted way lot better here compared to BABEL [lamest movie ever]
lots of talking & babel sounds more like 'membebel' or 'blabbering' to me!
it's like 3 different countries of different languages used smased into a movie.
so the complicating.

ah huh...starting of the movie was kind of slow.
with bits & pieces of scenes, like 3 scenarios of different locations at one go!
amazingly, the music & colours were old school! i mean sort of retro.
i like!

anyway, the plot's excellent. this intrigued me!
i like the fact that george clooney was cool, calm & collected.
well, these gangs reunited once again to 'break' the bank of ambitious Willy Bank.
the way they planned the trap was 'clean' & intelligent.
abt the 5 diamond necklace, can you guys imagine it was 'towed' away by a helicopter *wth*
& abt the part george clooney wiped his eyes, he actually watched oprah winfrey's show!
eventually, brad pitt cried too! *so unexpected ok!*

it's difficult for me to type all scenes in this movie.
what i can say now is ... go & watch.
it's worth the money.
4 stars!

all of us had supper @ bencoolen mamak shop.
so shocked we're charged $40.90 for the meals of 7 heads.

sunday, 10th June 2007

surprisingly, i woke up @ 730am, when i still remembered i slept @ 430am.
on the pc & lazed around.
i was eager to go for the Victoria's Secret sales.

i reached there @ abt 4pm.
i made my way there alone, yes, only myself.
he was only there halfway.
i was pretty amazed to see dockers, guess, zara, mango, billabong, fcuk, o'neill, & more others on discounts. *woah*

as you guys know, not all were nice.
so have to be more patient in looking for the nice ones.
out of eagerness, i thought i wld spend alot, but it's otherwise.
only 1 VS undergarment & 1 zara tops.
designs & patterns were nice, but i guess it just didn't feed my taste.
i got him 1 green dockers tops too.
i cldn't take a snapshot since my sis using the digicam. *boring se. oopsie!*

i saw asyik + gf. my sec. sch mate...it's nice to meet you!
we then had our dinner @ marina sq.
the tom yam there was not very delicious.
i shld've tried spice crispy noodle instead. *argh*

as we were strolling, i dropped by ice lemon tee & bought headscarf
i wonder if i wld use it. *cross-finger*

we hung out for a while & then straight to home.

happy monday to all! *winks*


Love...


♥ Wednesday, June 06, 2007♥

this is a quickie entry ya guys...

i'm NUTS.
it took me hours to do this blog.
the issue is, i constantly change it whenever i feel sick over the skin.
NOW just look at the time!!! *sigh...boring se*
i've yet to complete it since some areas are under construction still.

oh my god, i'm extremely piss when i'm thinking abt this particular issue.
i won't unfold my pitiful stories here.

cheers!


Love...


♥ Monday, June 04, 2007♥

saturday, 030607

before meeting the rest, me & fadzir met @ mrt station.
headed to Plaza S'pura.
so much of considerations, i bought a cardigan, & he got a skinny tie with black & white stripped.
then he confessed he looked like a rockstar?
WHAT? oh god, please help my dear friend here! *haha*

and so my beautiful colleagues & i had great time @ M.O.S.
i don't know if it's ashamed to say it's my 2nd time there!!! *ok...whatever*
if only M.O.S exists last 6 years, i cld see myself as clubbing there regularly.

we hung out @ STUDIO 54 & PURE for a short while.
seriously, PURE is something similar like ZOUK to me.
don't be surprised that i cld click well with the music offered @ PURE.
the sound was thumping loudly that it caught me.
STUDIO 54 is very retro, michael jackson song was played too! *huh?*
STUDIO 54's interior is colourful & retroly awesome.
PURE is very white all over but the subtle velvety lighting effect is rocking!

SMOOVE was hella hot! the crowd was amazing. the music was cool.
well, it's easy for me to dance to the beat!
sadly, i cldn't even move freely, not even to the side or back.
at times, i was turned off.
i didn't really enjoyed the idea dancing body-to-body with strangers.
of course there're beautiful strangers too!
i'm lucky to have the dilip & morgan protecting me against the unwanted mishaps. *BIG thx U guys*

we kept on moving to other rooms, as some felt that it's way too crowded.
in the end, we returned to SMOOVE again.

i danced my way through & it's already 3am.
it's always when i'm having much fun, i mean TOO MUCH fun, & the time runs freaking quickly.
don't you guys think so?
ashley, who denied being drunk, went home with me.
i sent her to the taxi stand...afraid she might sleep along the road *haha*

i saw a few familiar beautiful strangers & couple of friends in the club.
a few i smiled & talked, some i eye contacted but wldn't DARE to smile.
just don't ask, probably i'm shy.
i believe it's not too late to say HELLO, if any of you bump here!

alright, i guess this is the moment you guys been waiting for!
photo time!!!!
i didn't dress well that night, just pardon me!
i had bad hair day!
to my surprise, i didn't make up.
just eyeliner, mascara & blusher.
i guess this is my 1st time didn't apply any eyeshadow to the club.
so it's kind of chill dress up, where i guess no one wld pin their eyes on me.
*smiling*


my lovely colleagues!
i heart you people!
i believe my colleagues had a huge blast that night!


Love...


♥ Sunday, June 03, 2007♥

argh!
i'm so pissing tired. i'm hyper-sleepy.
i am going to take shower & DIVE ON MY BED.

blisters are freaking painful & unbearable!
i don't understand, but i shld've applied lotion b4hand.

i thought my wedge shoes are perfectly fine.
i was wrong. i 'managed' to have 3 blisters @ one go.
stupid.


Love...


♥ Saturday, June 02, 2007♥

I see them watching, they waiting for an opportunity to ride up on me
Hoping they don't roll up on me
Don't talk back, won't be no violence, just shut up, and sit in your seat in silence
They searching me and then they searching you
I turned around and I look at you, and you look away like you feeling sick
I must admit, that I hate a snitch
Cause one day you're here, next thing you know
Everything that used to move don't move no more


Love...


♥ Friday, June 01, 2007♥

oh god, why i saw tt most-not-wanted-to-see 'bastard' again!
2 times in a row.
no wonder my left eye still twitching from the other time till today! *argh*
this time was at east coast park McD's.
as i was washing hand, i lifted my head & gazed into the mirror, the 'bastard' was in it! *wth*
one time quickie-look with no smiles accompanied. *thx god*

coincidentally, 1st sis & bro were there too with the kids.
they offered me to chill, but i rushingly made my way.

my hips in pain now! *oh why?*

now, i wanted to post photos when i bounced in the club on 16th May, Naz b'day.
i'm not a party animal. i don't drink, i hate cigarettes. always sober. i avoid strangers.
i hit the club once last year - new year.
this year, up-to-date, twice - new year & b'day party.
i might club again this saturday, since there's gathering event by fadzir & era.
therefore, already thrice in 2007.
will there be more to go? *just don't ask me*
i'm not proudly complimenting myself or saying i'm good.
this is truely ME!
my night life slowly dissipates in my blood.
@ one point, it'll eventually die.

[top left] L-R: cesar, naz, birthday girl was hella drunk *oppz*, din & eric.
[top right] L-R: Vlad, leona & me!
[bottom left] group photo @ o bar.
[bottom right] L-R: kaverne, din, eric, valerie & me.

i had pretty fun time with these guys over @ o bar.
me & cesar popped in dbl o for a short while & he loved the music.
made our way back to o bar.
the last ppl standing still managed to chill @ mos + chillies [or i shld say crappie] till 6am.
i cldn't imagine kaverne really brought us here with hip-hop + bhangra songs. *what? lol*
while all were 'smiling' away, my ex-nbps noticed me - firdaus.
such a long time babe! nice meeting you.
time check: 6 am
we then sat along boat quay 7-11 & munching ruffles & drinking 100 plus.
i guess i reached home @ abt 7.10am

call us nuts or crazy, but i bet you will!


Love...